David is not feeling the best today, in mind or body, poor guy. He is really frustrated with how slow his body is healing, when really he is doing better then most in his situation. He still does not feel well enough to eat, the oral meds are making him sick, he is getting heart burn from the anti rejection drugs, his throat is all messed up from the breathing tube, his tongue doesn't seem to be working right, and he is in a lot of pain. At one point today he said that it wasn't worth it he wanted to go back to the way it was before the surgery. He is just really frustrated with not feeling good, WHO CAN BLAME HIM! He was sitting there just flinging his legs up and down in frustration and just yelling out in irritation. Finally he asked for something for the pain and something to help him sleep, the nurse also asked the doctor to order up some Xanex as well for him. He needs to just chill for awhile. I think he honestly expected to wake up feeling like a new person without any side effects and it is frustrating to him that he doesn't feel exactly that way.
I came back early from the hospital with the kids and took a nap, I just can't stop from being exhausted. All of the past weeks without sleep are finally catching up with me! Then I made dinner for the troops and we are spending a quiet evening in our "hometel" as the kids call it. I really hope he feels better tomorrow. I feel so badly for him, all of these emotions and feelings have got to be a lot to take in all at once, plus still not feeling good after everything he has gone through.